Saturday, January 16, 2010

Conan vs NBC

I think it's disgusting that NBC used an under handed ploy to put Jay Leno back as The Tonight Show host. I agree with Conan OBrien, 12:05 am is not the Tonight Show time slot, and hasn't been in over 60 years. Ratings were down for Jay Leno's prime time show, so whose fault is that? Now they hack away at the staff of Conan O'Brien by essentially ousting them from their dreams! These people uprooted their families and moved to the west coast. 7 months after the conversion, NBC pulls the rug from under them! I will never watch Jay Leno as the host of The Tonight Show! He should bow out gracefully. He had his time, and he should never allow this to happen to what appeared to be a good friend of his.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Jumping to conclusions

Since childhood, I have had the horrible habit of forming my own conclusions regarding ANY and EVERY situation I encountered. My word, if I had a penny for all the times I was completely wrong, left picking my jaw up off of the ground, I would be the richest witch on the planet lol! I recently had the misfortune of doing this very same thing. The key to recovery is admission right?

I am a Facebook addict. I know this, and my children know this. The Internet is perfect for those of us that lead a relatively quiet life....free from clubs, crowds, and chaos. I say this to say, that I know all of my 114 friends (to date) either directly or indirectly. I noticed that while playing one of my games online, a face that I realized I hadn't seen in awhile. This party invited my friendship due to WFTC (walk for the cause....cancer research). I can tell you now, that WFTC people are DIE hard individuals (no pun intended). They blog, chat, discuss, and encourage one another to walk walk walk for cancer research. As you put feet to pavement cyberly, you gain miles, thus donating money to charity. The trick is, that you can only walk so much (simply clicking your mouse with with each destination i.e. Central Park, alongside a lake, Antarctica etc) with 1 glass of water. To get more water, your teammates (other FB users that you solicit or that solicit you) can use a credit card and apply $$ to give you unlimited water...or you can do so yourself.

Here's where I have the problem. I am currently unemployed, a single mother of 4 children, meager income. I am not able to walk very far, thus not being as die hard as the others who have managed to walk to new continents lol!

Some WFTC participants, get so involved they encourage you to walk walk walk more more more! The 1 glass of water just won't allow for that. Seemingly, I felt that your teammates should come together and donate some water to the struggling teammate, or just let that person contribute as they see fit, or can. I started to feel immense pressure. It no longer became something I was proud of and felt passionately about. I have a dear friend that almost lost her battle with Cancer, so I always do what I can to put cancer awareness on the frontline. Needless to say, I cancelled WFTC application from my laptop.

So you say....Trina, what did you jump to conclusions about? Well, one of my WFTC teammates, dropped me from her friends list. I noticed that while playing a game. It had to have been sometime ago. But I immediately became filled with feelings of rejection, anger, and "oh no she didn't!!" I immediately shot off an email telling her it was shallow and how cancer impacted my life. I was so angry and offended! How dare she ask for my friendship on the condition that I participate in this "game." The application was faulty, and always had that "you're outta water, so no more walking for you" feel.

The next day I received a friend request from one of her WFTC friends explaining that the person lost her FB account and so she lost my info I guess. Well now, I feel silly and once again Treen Jumped to conclusions : (

The End

Monday, January 11, 2010

Note to self

Don't watch scarry movies at night with Kejan....He is just as freaked out as I am lol! Both of us are skeptical about going downstairs to get a drink of water and a midnght snack. So...now.....why the heck did we agree to watch these movies again?

Quality Time

I love spending time with my teenage son Kejan. like now, were watching a scary movie, laughing at the graphic scenes and wondering whose going to be slaughtered next lol! It's times with my children, laughing and enjoying one another's company, that I'm the happiest. The greatest thing about kids, is that the love is unconditional. They have TRUE loyalty. They love you, flaws and all....and they have the most forgiving spirits. Think about a baby or even a toddler... You discipline or scold them, yet you're the one they run to or cry after when you're not around.

The greatest blessing God gave me is the ability to bear children and be a mother. I have 4 children and I'm 39 years old. I still want at least 1 more. People would judge me for that last statement because I'm currently a single parent. Although I'm married, I'm separated and receive no help from my spouse. he's finding his way in life (rolling my eyes lol). But it's my right! As a woman, as a mother, and if it's God's will, I'm having another within 2 years
: )

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Loyalty

It amazes me how some people take loyalty with a grain of salt. Your word is all you have in life. If you make a commitment to call, come by, or do something with someone, it is essential that you exercise courtesy and advise them if circumstances arise, or plans change.

I experience this continually with certain people in my life. They will say to me they are going to do something with me or for me, and fail to follow though. Now, don't get me wrong, I am not throwing a pity party. What I am in fact attempting to convey is how inconsiderate an over abundant amount of people in my life are! So, this tells me that I attract those types of people. That, or maybe I need to pick my friends like I pick my fruit.

The main thing to take from this is, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Treat others as you would like to be treated. Hakuna matata...blah blah blah lol!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Unecessary drama

I find that one of the chief problems in my life is that I am too nice. Sounds narcissistic, but seriously, I fail to address issues as they arise, and as a result people run with their nonsense. I have what's called my "F it" button lol, once it's pushed, there's no turning back. My engines reeving and I prepared to unleash a can of cuss out on the unsuspecting party. I am not proud of this. Here is my advice to those that take proverbially kind hearted people for granted.....STOP IT!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Ambiguity

Hard to be positive about the upcoming year if the previous one was a loser lol! Looks bleak huh? Well always attempt to visualize yourself in the place you want to be in life, the body you want, or the financial status you desire. Really "feel" the imagery. Then and only then can you truly attain the wonders that are avalable to you. Its simply making your life manifest into the one that you desire. I know you can do it! Live, Love, Learn.....

Friday, January 1, 2010

My first blog...the 1st day of 2010

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That's my evening...well the demogragraphics of it all. The full story is that I spent the New Year, watching Dick Clark, alone. My 3 babies, asleep, tucked in tightly. My teenage son, at a party. No call of course from a 15 year old at his first party with new friends and cousins lol!

A sadness came over me when the clock struck midnight. Why? Well I'm married, but separated from my spouse. A man that I love so much it hurts, but just isn't willing to give 100% of himself to family and marriage. I didn't even get a call, but then again, I really didn't think I would. I watched so many couples kiss and hug. I woshed that he was here with me doing the same. But what can you do, it is what it is right?

I am so happy that God blessed me with another day/evening. My beautiful children, wonderful friends and family. I'm going to think "break through minded". I know that God will mend my family, bring a beautiful home foR us, and financial stability.

2009 brought alot of joy (my daughter Alyssa), pain, ambiguity, and hope.....moving forward, I know that with positive affirmations, and visualizing all that I hope will come to pass, 2010 will be the best yet!!!

My first blog...the first day of the New Year!

I did what my mama told me, bring in the new year with black eye peas for good luck. They were yummy too lol! Additionally, I brought in 2010 with Dick Clark...alone, children tucked in bed....all except my tennager who went to his 1st party with cousins. Still no call from him wishing mama happy new year lol!

As I watched couples embrace and kiss when the ball dropped in Times Square.....it dawned on me that I was alone, without the love of my life, my husband and partner of whom I am separated from. I really love him, and am saddened that he seemingly doesn't feel the same.

Ideally, I have to look at the impending year with optimisim and enthusiasm. I have to visualize all that I want and the image that I want others to see....as well as the mage I want for myself. Positive thinking and affirmations....prayer and faith in GOD's work and miracles. I know that my family will be reunited, my finances will be abundant, my children and I healthy, and happiness throughout my days! Happy New Year folks!