Pity Party

Mother's Day was nice. Relaxed with my children. Thought I was going to get at least an email from my estranged spouse but I guess that's the breaks. I have had lots of dreams lately that I am beng abandoned. I guess it has caused some resentment and definite sadness in my days and evenings. I recently moved back to Vegas.....still have to go get my things from my old apartment in Riverside. The one thing I really need right now is God to work in my favor....bring me peace, someone that really loves me, loyalty, and a job. He has given me so many blessings thus far....I feel awful asking for more, but I'm so depressed lately. I guess I thought he and I would have a hapilly ever after, and he would be there for me and our kids. The saddest thing in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.