Absentism Parenting

SUCKS! That is all.

FURIOUS AND LIVID

Can't believe my teenagers choice in female companions! They all fit the same build. To make matters worse, they are rude, precocious, and never high achievers. Tonight one began yelling at me and basically attempting to out talk me. I feel so hostile toward my son for never taking my advice in the interim about the company he keeps.

Sibling rivalry

It seems as though all my younger children do is bicker and make one another miserable. This in turn makes me furious and toting a headache the size of Mt St. Helen's. I read various children's articles that say this common. I try to count to 3 even 10 when it seems like my head s going to explode. But I found myself filled with anxiety. The cure? I enrolled them in daycare!

So much in so little time

Sooooo, let's see.....I've given up on trying to co-parent or reconcile with my estranged spouse....my car was towed by a renegade cop, my job with Williams Sonoma was a farce, and the house I'm renting was an expensive hoax. So now I moving AGAIN....to a deluxe apartment in the skyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

ACHOO!

I think I have pnemonia

Swine Flu

I have the second cold in like 35 days!!! I hate influenza and I hate the fact I failed to get a flu shot this year!!!! LOOOOOSER LOL!

Show Girl!

Moving back to Las Vegas was the best thing I could have ever done! My children and I are so happy and I can see a definite change in my personal constitution! Thank you God for always bringing a rainbow after a storm....

Broke

Okay, so I have officially been out of work by choice for like 11 mos...now I'm just bored of not having money and living like I'm use to. God has been good and kept all the bills on and the kids fed, but I feel more productive when I clock in and out. I do miss the kids, but I also love the benefit of buying them the little things they ask for. Right now the universal theme is, "mommy doesn't have any money but let's go to the park or The Strip!" This works but need to have more than that in my life. The one person I always thouht I could count on, just left us hanging. Made me a bitter pill, but he doesn't care. The hardest thing to do is watch someone you love, love somebody else.

Pity Party

Mother's Day was nice. Relaxed with my children. Thought I was going to get at least an email from my estranged spouse but I guess that's the breaks. I have had lots of dreams lately that I am beng abandoned. I guess it has caused some resentment and definite sadness in my days and evenings. I recently moved back to Vegas.....still have to go get my things from my old apartment in Riverside. The one thing I really need right now is God to work in my favor....bring me peace, someone that really loves me, loyalty, and a job. He has given me so many blessings thus far....I feel awful asking for more, but I'm so depressed lately. I guess I thought he and I would have a hapilly ever after, and he would be there for me and our kids. The saddest thing in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.

Moving!

So excited about moving back home to Las Vegas. Never leaving! I just can't deal with all the negative changes that have taken place in Californiia. Culture shock, and horrible school district in Riverside!

Moving

Have 2 excellent job prospects...in Las Vegas!!! I always end up there, but I've excepted that that's home for my family and I. Others may disagree, but I know that I was unsuccessful in California. It's broke, crowded, and no jobs. I guess L.A. county is still where it's at, but the Inland Empire is a dry no mans land.....Las Vegas Nevada here I come!!!! Right back where I started frommmmmmmmmmm

Family Time

Been spending allot of time with my brother Troy and his nieces. It really has changed my life. I'm so use to being "The Lone Ranger." Knowing someone has my back, cooking for my children and I, playing with them and being a positive male role model, just feels great! I don't feel so sad that they have a father that absolutely refuses to be there for them. Although nothing takes the place of a "father"....they are fortunate to have some kind of male role model in their lives, and for this I feel both grateful and blessed!

Recent sadness

It's been a long time since I blogged. Not that there hasn't been anything interesting iin my life. Hmmmmmm, let's see..... moved back to Vegas. Live in a beautiful apartment community. Had a Mother's Day that was peaceful and receieved a card from my BFF and some beautiful wishes from FB friends. My estranged husband didn't email me at all.That hurt, but I expect that because we have been estranged for over 1 year now. Lately I have been having dreams of abandonement and it's caused alot of depression for me. I am looking forward to my renewed life here in Vegas, but I guess I anticipated that I would have a renewed relationship with people that I had falling outs with. So the moral of the story is that I have to brush myself off and keep it pushing because no one is going to attend my pity parties but me : (