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Family is irritating me....one gene at a time

There's a hurricaine a comin'!

At present I don't have cable or the converter boxes that allow for local channels. I find out a few days ago that there is a category 2 hurricane headed to obliterate Columbia SC. This information is provided by my 67 year old mother, in a very mater of fact tone. *SIGH* now I think to myself, this must be what the residents of various parts of New Orleans felt like. I mean, according to mom, we were required to evacuate. I had a total of $10.00 to my name, and 1/4 tank of gas. How would I leave? To where? Later in the week, a cousin advised that we would only receive rain, and some winds. I guess I learned a valuable lesson. I should be receiving child support from my estranged husband, and I need to start a savings, when I can afford to put something away LOL. However my prayers are with anyone that is impacted by this mofo :(

Back to school

I have exactly 2 weeks to get my children on a schedule. For some reason I'm procrastinating. I think it's because this is Kejan's last year, and then Diamond and Terrill are entering elementary school. My babies are growing up, and I am sad to see them leave :( Crazy, but I knew this day would come. Wish my brother Todd was alive, he would talk me through it :( My other brother Troy, would just scold me and make me feel like the jack of all asses LOL

Birthday Eve

So my cousins are throwing me HUGE birthday/karaoke party and guess what? Found out today that courtesy of Alyssas daycare, the two of us have Hand, Mouth, and Foot Disease!!! Comes from children and filthy environmental daycare!!! I'm so pissed! Painful rash on our palms, bottoms of feet, and inside our mouth!!! Strep throat to boot! So, it's my party and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to....you would cry to if it happened to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu LOL

Status

Lately I have been very reflective about my "status" in this world. I tend to live a self fulfilling prophecy and I'm not happy with that. I seem to have more people in my life that desire to see me in a rut, than to succeed. Maybe that's not true. Maybe I'm victimizing myself to over compensate for my own failures. *sigh*

FURIOUS AND LIVID

Can't believe my teenagers choice in female companions! They all fit the same build. To make matters worse, they are rude, precocious, and never high achievers. Tonight one began yelling at me and basically attempting to out talk me. I feel so hostile toward my son for never taking my advice in the interim about the company he keeps.

Must blog more!

Lord knows I have a ton to say, and even more things happening in my life : ) 4th of July yesterday was so fun! Went to Weston Lake with cousins, mom +step dad, kids and aunts. Kids played in the water as if they were merpeople! I love it when a plan comes together

Saturday afternoon

I make no apologies....I am a home body.I love to be at home watching TV and movies...enjoying my children to the fullest,or at least until they work my nerves lol! I am not a fan of crowds. I do enjoy church and dining out. I am hoping that one day I can travel more and get to some art galleries, botanical gardens, and plays. Other than that, I'm me and I don't much care who doesn't like it *puts specs back on*

They know who they are

“The man who backbites an absent friend, nay, who does not stand up for him when another blames him, the man who angles for bursts of laughter and for the repute of a wit, who can invent what he never saw, who cannot keep a secret - that man is black at heart: mark and avoid him.” ~Cicero~

Christmas 2010

Merry Xmas ladies and gents! I can't believe it's been about a year since I began my blog! I remember being so optimistic during this time last year. I lived in Riverside CA, subleasing my longtime best friend Kisha's apt. I was happy. I wasn't working so I was able to be home with my children. I was a full time college student online. Things were great! I must say that 2010 was a terrible year for me. I found allot of betrayal and backbiting in this year. My big brother Todd died from Lou Gehrig's Disease, my other big brother Troy disappointed and betrayed me for absolutely no reason at all. Is there ever a reason?? I am now in Columbia SC and the only benefit of that is that I see my mother often.I still feel like eyes are always on me and that I can't make my own decisions.

I am thinking strongly about moving away again.I know that I will meet with scrutiny, but I may have to do it without anyone knowing except my mother. Maybe I will move to Charlotte or Atlanta. All I know is that a move is pretty certain. I plan to exert my full independence this next year. It won't matter who doesn't like it or me afterward. Amen

So much in so little time

Sooooo, let's see.....I've given up on trying to co-parent or reconcile with my estranged spouse....my car was towed by a renegade cop, my job with Williams Sonoma was a farce, and the house I'm renting was an expensive hoax. So now I moving AGAIN....to a deluxe apartment in the skyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Broke

Okay, so I have officially been out of work by choice for like 11 mos...now I'm just bored of not having money and living like I'm use to. God has been good and kept all the bills on and the kids fed, but I feel more productive when I clock in and out. I do miss the kids, but I also love the benefit of buying them the little things they ask for. Right now the universal theme is, "mommy doesn't have any money but let's go to the park or The Strip!" This works but need to have more than that in my life. The one person I always thouht I could count on, just left us hanging. Made me a bitter pill, but he doesn't care. The hardest thing to do is watch someone you love, love somebody else.

Moving!

So excited about moving back home to Las Vegas. Never leaving! I just can't deal with all the negative changes that have taken place in Californiia. Culture shock, and horrible school district in Riverside!

Cutting off the negative energy

Today marks the first day that I cut off certain family members that have nothing positve to add to my or my children's lives. They shall remain nameless, howver let's just say that offenses include: not identifying with our family because they decided to shift races....always commenting on my parenting and treating me with disrespect. I don't desire or need it, so I'm moving out of state and my numbers will change. The End

Moving

Have 2 excellent job prospects...in Las Vegas!!! I always end up there, but I've excepted that that's home for my family and I. Others may disagree, but I know that I was unsuccessful in California. It's broke, crowded, and no jobs. I guess L.A. county is still where it's at, but the Inland Empire is a dry no mans land.....Las Vegas Nevada here I come!!!! Right back where I started frommmmmmmmmmm

Neices!!!!

I'm having the greatest week ever! One of my brothers allowed their 2 daughters plus a best friend to visit my children and I for the entire week!!!! Yay!

Happy Easter!

Off to a very late start!!! Got food poisoning last nite...recently became a vegetarian, and still haven't dyed eggs or put together the easter baskets waah! I'm moving at a snails pace, but nevertheless I'm moving lol! Happy Easter ya'll!!!

Tiger Woods/George Lopez

Laughing is so great for the mind, spirit, and psyche!!! I'm watching the George Lopez late night show for the first time, and OMG he's hilarious! I am usually an idea assassin when it comes to celebrities with newfound talk shows or late night spoofs....but ths is a winner and a keeper! Tiger Woods.....reminds me of my soon to be ex husband....just flying by the seat of his million dollar pants, with no regard for anything but his "yooohoo." How lame?! I mean hello! Don't get married Tiger and Terrill (spouse lol), Just stay single and play the field. This way you don't condemn your souls to eternal damnation lol! The soap box has been exited.....and scene : )

Recent sadness

It's been a long time since I blogged. Not that there hasn't been anything interesting iin my life. Hmmmmmm, let's see..... moved back to Vegas. Live in a beautiful apartment community. Had a Mother's Day that was peaceful and receieved a card from my BFF and some beautiful wishes from FB friends. My estranged husband didn't email me at all.That hurt, but I expect that because we have been estranged for over 1 year now. Lately I have been having dreams of abandonement and it's caused alot of depression for me. I am looking forward to my renewed life here in Vegas, but I guess I anticipated that I would have a renewed relationship with people that I had falling outs with. So the moral of the story is that I have to brush myself off and keep it pushing because no one is going to attend my pity parties but me : (