Homeschooling mom villian

***post from 2012***
I have always had a problem with "validation" from others. Whether needing it, requesting it, or running away from it. It's crazy, you have to teach people have to treat you. The same is true of the notion of once bitten twice shy. Where am I going with this? As a 42 year old single mother of 4 kids ages 3, 5, 7, and 18, I should know what is best or what is better for them with regard to education and the like. My 7 year old son has been diagnosed with ADHD. He just wasn't doesn't doing well in a rigid setting. His current elementary school has a rule that during lunch time, yes lunch time, you cannot talk to your peers or anyone for that matter when the "music" is on. Now. for an adult that would be torture, can you imagine an ADHD or even a typical child? So, I have given up on the public school system. I will allow God to order my steps and let my children learn from their life experiences and use a biblical based curriculum at home, with yours truly, a teacher that loves and cares about my kids as individuals and not statistics.

New Year's Eve

Overcame objections, stood up to bullies, left non existent relationships behind, and secured a positive future. That looks like an amazing 2012 in my book!

Spooky christians

Nuf said.....

Birthday Eve

So my cousins are throwing me HUGE birthday/karaoke party and guess what? Found out today that courtesy of Alyssas daycare, the two of us have Hand, Mouth, and Foot Disease!!! Comes from children and filthy environmental daycare!!! I'm so pissed! Painful rash on our palms, bottoms of feet, and inside our mouth!!! Strep throat to boot! So, it's my party and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to....you would cry to if it happened to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu LOL

Status

Lately I have been very reflective about my "status" in this world. I tend to live a self fulfilling prophecy and I'm not happy with that. I seem to have more people in my life that desire to see me in a rut, than to succeed. Maybe that's not true. Maybe I'm victimizing myself to over compensate for my own failures. *sigh*

Must blog more!

Lord knows I have a ton to say, and even more things happening in my life : ) 4th of July yesterday was so fun! Went to Weston Lake with cousins, mom +step dad, kids and aunts. Kids played in the water as if they were merpeople! I love it when a plan comes together

Saturday afternoon

I make no apologies....I am a home body.I love to be at home watching TV and movies...enjoying my children to the fullest,or at least until they work my nerves lol! I am not a fan of crowds. I do enjoy church and dining out. I am hoping that one day I can travel more and get to some art galleries, botanical gardens, and plays. Other than that, I'm me and I don't much care who doesn't like it *puts specs back on*

Christmas 2010

Merry Xmas ladies and gents! I can't believe it's been about a year since I began my blog! I remember being so optimistic during this time last year. I lived in Riverside CA, subleasing my longtime best friend Kisha's apt. I was happy. I wasn't working so I was able to be home with my children. I was a full time college student online. Things were great! I must say that 2010 was a terrible year for me. I found allot of betrayal and backbiting in this year. My big brother Todd died from Lou Gehrig's Disease, my other big brother Troy disappointed and betrayed me for absolutely no reason at all. Is there ever a reason?? I am now in Columbia SC and the only benefit of that is that I see my mother often.I still feel like eyes are always on me and that I can't make my own decisions.

I am thinking strongly about moving away again.I know that I will meet with scrutiny, but I may have to do it without anyone knowing except my mother. Maybe I will move to Charlotte or Atlanta. All I know is that a move is pretty certain. I plan to exert my full independence this next year. It won't matter who doesn't like it or me afterward. Amen

sad

miss my brother...miss being somebody's someone....miss living in Riverside....miss being a stay at home mom....hate being alone....wish I could go back to the days when my kids were babies so I could love on em' more....wish that I could just be HAPPY

Bittersweet

Moved to South Carolina. Been separated from my spouse for over 2 1/2 years now. Got saved. Love chuch. living with my cousin for now. The end.