Status

Lately I have been very reflective about my "status" in this world. I tend to live a self fulfilling prophecy and I'm not happy with that. I seem to have more people in my life that desire to see me in a rut, than to succeed. Maybe that's not true. Maybe I'm victimizing myself to over compensate for my own failures. *sigh*

FURIOUS AND LIVID

Can't believe my teenagers choice in female companions! They all fit the same build. To make matters worse, they are rude, precocious, and never high achievers. Tonight one began yelling at me and basically attempting to out talk me. I feel so hostile toward my son for never taking my advice in the interim about the company he keeps.

Must blog more!

Lord knows I have a ton to say, and even more things happening in my life : ) 4th of July yesterday was so fun! Went to Weston Lake with cousins, mom +step dad, kids and aunts. Kids played in the water as if they were merpeople! I love it when a plan comes together

Saturday afternoon

I make no apologies....I am a home body.I love to be at home watching TV and movies...enjoying my children to the fullest,or at least until they work my nerves lol! I am not a fan of crowds. I do enjoy church and dining out. I am hoping that one day I can travel more and get to some art galleries, botanical gardens, and plays. Other than that, I'm me and I don't much care who doesn't like it *puts specs back on*

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They know who they are

“The man who backbites an absent friend, nay, who does not stand up for him when another blames him, the man who angles for bursts of laughter and for the repute of a wit, who can invent what he never saw, who cannot keep a secret - that man is black at heart: mark and avoid him.” ~Cicero~

Christmas 2010

Merry Xmas ladies and gents! I can't believe it's been about a year since I began my blog! I remember being so optimistic during this time last year. I lived in Riverside CA, subleasing my longtime best friend Kisha's apt. I was happy. I wasn't working so I was able to be home with my children. I was a full time college student online. Things were great! I must say that 2010 was a terrible year for me. I found allot of betrayal and backbiting in this year. My big brother Todd died from Lou Gehrig's Disease, my other big brother Troy disappointed and betrayed me for absolutely no reason at all. Is there ever a reason?? I am now in Columbia SC and the only benefit of that is that I see my mother often.I still feel like eyes are always on me and that I can't make my own decisions.

I am thinking strongly about moving away again.I know that I will meet with scrutiny, but I may have to do it without anyone knowing except my mother. Maybe I will move to Charlotte or Atlanta. All I know is that a move is pretty certain. I plan to exert my full independence this next year. It won't matter who doesn't like it or me afterward. Amen